I Remember

"The farthest star in the sky burns the brightest."
I'll always remember the first day I met you. You came into my life so unexpectedly and instantly left me in a sea of bumbling thoughts and stuttering words. We were introduced so casually yet it took all my courage and brainpower just to form words in my mouth. "Say something Andre! Goddamn
it just say SOMETHING!" These were the only words swimming in my head as I desperately tried not to make myself look like a total fool in front of you. We only spoke for a few minutes that day but that was all it took. Your eyes, your smile, your charm... they were so damned magnetic I was convinced that no matter the circumstance you and I would grow old together.

I'll always remember how you mercilessly invaded my thoughts. I would sit back and allow my fantasies of you; the adventurous, the sexual, the endless romance, to run wild with no limitations. Images of you would accompany me in bed at night and be there to greet me as I woke up in the morning, along with the same questions I repeatedly asked myself every time you popped in my head. "Who exactly is this woman? How has she taken me over like this? Why her?
What is it about her?" I never knew these kinds of feelings could exist in something like me, but I knew you and I would meet again in the future and I eagerly anticipated that encounter because it was then that you were to going to know exactly how I felt about you.

I'll always remember that one chance I had to make my way into your world and share with you the darkest secrets of my own world. It's probably what I remember most when I think about you today. I approached that night with great hope and excitement knowing that I would not only get to see you again but knowing that this may very well be the start of an intense and glorious relationship between us, the type of relationship that would shake the foundations of life itself. Little did I realize that it would become the night of one of the biggest regrets in my life. I often ask myself why I chose to
keep my words to myself at the last minute. Looking back I guess there were a number of meager reasons but they can all be narrowed down to one thing. Despite all the feelings I had for you, I knew I would never be able to give you all the things I wanted to give you. The romantic connection, the
adventurous experiences, even the mind blowing sex I saw us having... I knew there would be someone out there that could give you the life you deserved and at the expense of my own fantasies, I was willing to make sure you had that opportunity.

They say the farthest star in the sky burns the brightest and in regards to you, I truly understand what it means now. You'll always be the representation of my wildest dreams and fantasies that will forever be impossibly out-of-reach. And despite everything I wish I could tell you, if there is one message that I must relay to you more than anything else it would be “thank you”. Thank you for being that huge beacon of light in a time when darkness was the only thing I knew, for being everything I never knew I wanted, and for giving me something new to strive for. You may have only been a passing face but you’ve undoubtedly made one of the most lasting impressions out of anybody I’ve met. By now you've moved on and in the years we’ve spent apart I’m sure you’ve forgotten all about me, but I'll remember you. I'll always remember you.
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